I did not sleep well last night. I worked late last night and I just couldn’t settle down. So when the alarm went off I decided I would get a few more hours of sleep and I would work from home today. Thirty minutes later I jumped up and got in the shower. Something told me that I needed to go to work today so I could have a conversation with a coworker. I didn’t know why I needed to talk to him, but I had to talk to him today. On my way to work I sent him a text and asked if we could have coffee together.
It turns out he had some feedback that he needed to give me. It was hard feedback to hear. I apparently haven’t treated him very well at work lately. I never want to do that to anyone, but I especially don’t want to do it to someone that I admire and respect. I tried to give him feedback as well, but in hindsight it probably came off more defensively than I intended. The truth is that I think what he said is probably true. It’s not something that I have been doing intentionally, but I guess if I’m completely honest I was probably aware of it. I did feel that I needed to talk to him. And I did write just two days ago that I was not feeling on top of my game.
I need to reflect on my actions more before I decide how I’m going to be better coworker in the future. I want to be someone that is a good partner in building solutions for our customers. It’s unfortunate that I have been projecting an attitude of not welcoming other’s opinions. That’s not who I want to be. It appears I have work to do.
I’m thankful that I have a friend that is willing to tell me when I am not doing something well. To tell you that you have done them wrong and to give you a chance to correct your actions. That sounds like true friendship to me.