Celebrating 

It has been awhile since my last post. It has been a tough few months and I was in a really dark place. I have always wanted my posts to be on the positive side and I finally have something good to say. Chemo is over (hooray!) and I should feel like celebrating but I’m not ready yet. My last treatment took everything out of me. After a week in the hospital, two transfusions, antibiotics and lots of steroids I’m finally getting my strength back. I have been so weak that I feel like I’m having to learn to walk all over again. There are still many things I need help with but I can now see and feel the progress I’m making. Brian asked if I wanted to get away and take a mini vacation. Maybe find a cabin in the mountains somewhere and just clear our heads. For some reason I didn’t jump at the chance – then I realized why – I just want to do something “normal”. What I really want is to have the strength to walk into a restaurant, order an adult beverage, some really good food, and visit with friends that I haven’t seen in a long time.    
So much has changed this year and I’m not sure what the new normal will be yet. I’m so looking forward to finding out. Yeah, getting back to normal sounds like a good way to celebrate to me.