The End of 40

As I write this, I’m sitting in my favorite chair (you know the one), watching the sunset, and sipping on a glass of 2010 Malbec. It’s a perfect way to finish the last day of my 40th year. Tomorrow I turn 41. I’m pretty excited to see the end of my 40th year come to an end; 40 sucked! Looking back, I’m pretty sure this past year is a year that I am worse off at the end of the year than I was at the beginning. And I think this applies to almost every part of my life. Our finances took a significant hit with repair bills and hospital stays. Work was tough. With so much transition with my employer and a new role I’m left questioning how I add value and what my long term career path is there. My health has slipped as I’ve lapsed with my diet and workout routine. My personal relationships took a hit suffering under the strain of dealing with…everything.

But I’m excited for what the next year will bring. I choose to take all of that and to use that to make positive changes for next year and beyond. What a wonderful opportunity I have been given. A chance to look at every aspect of my life and reevaluate how I have been living. Maybe I’m not living the way I want to live. Maybe I’ve gotten so caught up in making plans and trying to execute on those plans that I’ve forgotten to live. What’s the point of having a paid for house if it’s empty? Or having a big retirement account if you don’t have someone to share it with?

As tough as last year was, I know it could have been worse. I still have a home. I still have a job. And most importantly, I still have Carrie. With her by my side I know I can accomplish anything.

I plan to spend more time reflecting on the past year and figuring out what changes to make in the upcoming year and I doubt this is the last post on this topic. But I can tell you this; it’s going to be a more meaningful life. A life of building deeper and more meaningful relationships. And a life more focused on enjoying every moment and taking nothing for granted.